10.01.2009

one million seconds

Stu and I said goodbyes this morning at the airport, he was headed to Brasil with his dad and brothers for an 11-day "man trip". Both he and his brother Tanner served their missions there and they have been planning this trip back for quite some time. Stu loves Brasil, LOVES it. He loves the people, the culture, the language, the food... He's been singing the national anthem for the past couple weeks, non-stop. When they bought the tickets [months ago] I cringed at the idea that my Stu would be leaving me for such a long time, but it was kind of one of those things where I tried to pretend it wasn't going to happen. I mean, October seemed like forever away, it was easy not to think about it. But daily it creeped closer. This last week, I felt myself getting a bit cranky every time the trip came up, my little "let's-pretend-Stu-really-isn't-leaving" game wasn't working anymore. And today I had to come to terms with it as I rode away from the airport without him sitting right next to me. I felt so lame as little tears started to flood my eyes, the same reaction I had when I left for girls camp over the summer.

Is this boy that much a part of me that I can't be away from him for a week and a half without bawling like a baby? Yes.

Did I cry when he called me from his stopover in Atlanta [a mere 7 hours after I had seen him last] because I was so happy to hear his voice, because I missed him already? Yes.

Am I desperately excited for 6pm tomorrow when I can finally Skype him? Yes. Gotta love the world wide web.

Stu and I were doing some time conversions a few days ago, like, "one thousand seconds is 16.6667 minutes." I'm not sure why it started. I plugged in 1,000,000 into my calculator and converted that into minutes: 16,666. Then to hours: 277. Then days: 11.5 days. Which ironically enough is the exact amount of time that will lapse before I see my Stu again in the flesh.

Counting down the seconds...

11 comments:

Brea said...

OH MY GOODNESS!!! you are brave girl! Man I still can't go a day without Brint! It is seriously SO hard! I totally understand! why didn't you go with him? was is just a guys trip or something? what a bummer... :(

Jeff and Jenny said...

was totally crying with you as I read this. Jeff is leaving Wednesday for 5 days....11 totally trumps it. You can cone over and gang with me if you get lonely!!

Bart and Kellie said...

Bart and I have been married almost 7 years. He's leaving tomorrow for 3 days. I still cry every time one of us has to be gone. I think its a great thing to cry when your husband is gone. Can you imagine what it would say about your marriage if you didn't care that he left? I think it makes me miss him, and love him that much more when he comes back. And you have to do something fun while he's gone. Go pick up something for dinner you normally wouldn't eat, go get ice cream or watch a movie with friends (or something he wouldn't want to see). Or do a project (craft, home decor, painting whatever). Have fun, 11 days is long! Good luck!

Taralynn and Kory said...

I still think girls should have been invited on this trip, but I just survived my first week of hunting season! I know how you feel...and you're not the only one that cries!

nate and amy crandell said...

nate just went out of town for four days and I cried too a couple times but it's the best when they get home! absence makes the heart grow fonder (haha that's what my mom always says) anyways we should have a girls night for you!

Dani Stolworthy said...

i'm sorry :(
i wish you could cuddle with leshlie now...
I LOVE YOU!

Nikki & Raf said...

Aww, Ang! You are so brave. Raf's family is from Brasil, and he served there. Where did your man serve?!

Crazy! We'll have to get together and let our "squeezes" bond :D

<3 and I agree with Amy, you need girl's nights!!

Alexa Mae said...

that is hard ang. it would be hard for me and we have been married 5 years! whenever you feel lonely blog or EMAIL ME!!! ya, that sounds good.

Bev said...

Hey, I know, I'll have you and Jenny both over......
What a sweet post. It doesn't get any easier either, no matter how long you're married....but that's a good thing...wouldn't it be awful if you couldn't wait for them to go!

Ashley Kay said...

awww- he'll be back before you know it!! :)
i wish i could keep you company in Arizonaaa!
i love youuuu! let's have a phone date soon :)

kelly mccaleb said...

angie, i'm so glad you introduced yourself because i popped over here and love your blog! you are so cute! i'm subscribing :)