I had a good talk with a friend yesterday. We just talked about what was going on in her life; it wasn't so much her story, but her insights related to the story that affected me. It lasted no more than 20 minutes, and I'm sure she doesn't know the impact she had on my day.
This is something I've been thinking on ever since.
There is only one source where all things negative originate: Satan. Any negative thought, negative judgement, negative action starts with Satan. He is manipulative, cunning, and he probably knows us better than we think we know ourselves. No good things come from him. If we give in to those negative thoughts, even momentarily, we give power to Satan. We let him win, even if it is for an instant, he has gained a victory.
A lot of my "negative" thinking is about myself... Now don't get me wrong, I am so happy about my life and the people in it. I LOVE MY LIFE. I know I am incredibly blessed. But I have weaknesses. And I know that my biggest one is to be overly critical about myself. (and i can be kind of a messy person) One thought can put a damper on my day, because I choose to dwell on it. And then of course I make it bigger than it is by analyzing other things that are "wrong" with me or I think about things I should be better at, or what I can do to make others happier. yadda yadda... vicious cycle. And I know I won't change over night. But I know that thinking about negative thinking in this way, remembering that these thoughts are coming from satan, that he is winning when I give in to these thoughts, well it just makes me want to fight it all the more.
I'm starting my new years resolution early... What do you say friends? Can we choose to combat satan one ugly thought at a time?
tender mercy of the day: yesterday was just a good day for self-reflection... As I was driving out to one of our other offices, I switched the radio station and found a classic- "the middle" by one of the greats, Jimmy Eat World. It's been one of my faves for years, I've heard it a million and a half times, but I think yesterday is the first time I've really listened to it. If you have some time, I would grab your ipod and click on over to it... it really is good for the soul.